I’m looking at this question right now:  “Who do I want to be?”  Since I tend towards be-in-the-present-moment, I’ll rephrase this question as:  “Who am I?”

In doing my personal growth work as of late, I’m answering other questions such as “What do you want to have?” and “What do you want to do?”  For some reason, these feel easier to answer for me than the question above.  Who am I?  Why am I here?  I suddenly feel transported back to college philosophy class!  That is too scary.

Okay, back to this time in my life.  I feel like I can never fully answer the question of who I am.  I’m always changing, so it would make sense that my answer(s) are always changing as well.  So, I think of what is unchanging about my character (or what I strive for most of the time).  I think of the idea of LOVE.  I want to be loving.  I am love.  I can’t really think of anything else with as much certainty as that.

I know it’s tempting (for me at least) to look at what you don’t want to have, do, or be.  Sometimes, this helps me to know what I do indeed want.  I work to not really focus on the negatives though or else my energy will be directed in those negative places.

I tend to attract a lot of clients with life purpose-related questions.  That makes sense because from a Law of Attraction stand-point, life purpose is very important to me.  I can sense some disappointment in others at times when I don’t specifically answer their question:  “What is my life purpose?”  The thing is that only you can determine what your purpose is and it is a process.  Processes involve refinements, changes, or whatever you wish to call them.

I understand how it feels to feel uncertain about life purpose.  I know it’s painful at times.  It can feel like you missed the boat.  It can feel like everyone else is at a party and you’re never invited.  I sometimes have felt like a lost boat at sea that will never see land, let alone arrive to shore.  It can feel that bad at times.  I know because I’ve been there.

I once read a book and the one line that popped out of me was, “What if your purpose was to enjoy life?”  (Apologies for not being able to remember this book title)  At first, this question sort of, well, really infuriated me.  There has to be more to life, I thought.  I also thought it was preachy.  I felt sudden twinges of guilt for having too much fun.  Of course, I smiled realizing those fun times where the best.  I felt most connected to my purpose, my Higher Self, and my passions.  I also felt the most connected to others and well, to the Divine.  Fun is not a bad word.

So, I’ll add that to my list.  Besides being love, I want to be fun, joyful, and exubriant!  I claim those right now for me:  I AM fun.  I AM joyful!  I AM exubriant!  I AM…I AM…I AM.

Fun is part of the spiritual path.  I can’t survive long in places that don’t have love or joy.  I can’t handle being around people for very long that are serious.  Of course, there is a time and place for fun.  There is a time and place for seriousness.  I try, really try to honor others for where they need to be–I’m just saying the serious stuff doesn’t work for me.

Recently, I was investigating some study programs.  I was drawn to this one course of study.  I wrote the people who head it up.  I’m glad I did so because I learned it wasn’t for me.  The one person said that the spiritual path is not always fun or easy.  Okay, that is true–we all have choices to make and lessons.  For me, it’s how you handle those lessons.  So, I didn’t look back.  I decided that course of study was not for me.  It’s okay though.  I know they are lovely people.  I’m lovely.  It just didn’t have resonance for me.  I had to honor that about myself.  I’m into humor and laughing.

There’s plenty of time for seriousness…I’m chosing to make life fun

Off to have fun!,

Lisa

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